Back in my high school days, I was a typical student (well, I think I was) who goes at school and come home right after. I had friends back then, actually all of my classmates treats me really well as if I was kind of respected. But that only happens at school after that, nobody even notice that I'm gone, nobody invited me to hangout after school, nobody wants to be with me, that's how I felt back then, nobody aside my two best friends. But even though I had them back then, something in me was lacking, I was longing for a different type of friendship I guess.
So after high school through my first job, I had my first ever cellphone, and from then I started joining texting clans, I even built my own. And I had met then the best of friends I had, some people that I can play jokes with, and that was the very first time I felt appreciated, that I was valued as a person, as me, as a real friend. But along the way something happened, my best friend died, and the other went on with their live and as for me, the feeling of being alone came back. Nobody ever made me feels that way since my best friend, perhaps that's why I cried the hardest on his funeral, I even cried louder than his girl friend. Weeks after, I was sick, perhaps due to depression, and from then I decided that I can't live like that, and so, I started wondering around again, but unfortunately I don't know where to start on my circle of friends then, so I started joining texting clans again. I flirt with a lot of girls back then, coz that's how I feel appreciated, until I met my girl friend but ironically, the girl I loved, never really made me feels that way and what's worst is, I keep distance to those people who makes me great which my girl friend was jealous of.
And it feels like I was back on the way it was before,but now I learned to accept the fact that people lives on with or with out me.
Do you mean an outcast because you are not appreciated? Or do you mean an outcast because nobody can make you feel great again? It is only you who can help yourself. We, your blogger friends, appreciate your presence and visits in our blog. We appreciate your generosity of words and unending comments and observations. We are glad to be a part of your learning and becoming. You are an outcast if you do so, and you are not alone in this feeling. I feel the same way but I need to move on, be happy and find my niche. Be with us in your journey of life, and we will support you. I will, for I found a friend in you. God bless, my brother!
ReplyDeleteI guess it is indeed very hard pag nawalan ka ng bestfriend.. at pag may conflict between your gf and your friends.. but yes, I felt that before.. yun kahit madami kang kasama parang mag-isa ka pa din.. but I learned that it was never the case.. baka you just need to look closer para makita mo na madami nakaka-appreciate at nagpapahalaga sayo.. and don't forget that God is always here for you too! Hugs sweetie :)
ReplyDeletehang on there, Mecoy. Dont get carry away with these negative feelings.
ReplyDeleteThere are friends and relatives who cares for you. Though some may not show it directly. You must see all the small things that they does for you
DeleteCome on....school time is the thing of the past. You must look ahead .
DeleteYes, your best friend pass away but you can make new friend. I don't mean for you to forget your best friend but rather for you to move on. Am sure your best friend would not want you to be like this
You cant control what other people does. Some may back stab you out of the blue. Rant about it. Throw things and then get on with life.
DeleteHope you'll be okay...well...at least you have something to look forward to. Last week SK sent you a pressie. You should be receiving it soon. I just received mine
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well well well, hold on there young man.. stay positive and don't be carried away with your negative thoughts, like what Small Kucing commented.. :)
ReplyDeletei actually shared the same thought as her, well, old people think alike, haha!! don't just focused on people who don't appreciate you, but rather, think about those who appreciate and love you.. i am sure you have families and some friends who really care about you (perhaps you have not noticed??)..
ReplyDeleteforget about school times, you are not an adult and you should be looking forward.. like once you've thought about not letting your own life to continue that way, it's really a positive attitude that i think you should be having now.. stay positive and probably taking a first step out will get you even further.. :)
ReplyDeletei'm not supposed to judge anything but those are just my humble opinion, of course as a third party i may not be experiencing or feeling your situation but the bottomline is, think ahead and be positive.. :)
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ReplyDeleteSomehow ay nakaka relate din ako sa iyo parekoy. Ang hirap maging outcast. Naranasan ko na din yan dati. Siguro isa yan sa dahilan kaya naging mababa din ang self esteem ko sa sarili. Ito din cguro ang nag trigger dun sa anxiety ko. Itagay na lang natin yan hehe :D
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I was more an outcast in school than out. More of a loner than people person.
ReplyDeleteIts better to have just 2 best friends
ReplyDeletethan a group of fake friends really c:
I like to be alone but I don't like to
feel alone so I totally get your
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Maybe it is just how you feels, but through fb, twitter, blog etc you had gained more friends than you can ever think of. I believe you have to be happy being alone sometimes. What I mean doing things you like and be just happy being with yourself. You are a wonderful person and have lots of talents and actually can do a lot just being by yourself.
ReplyDeleteI too feels like that sometimes. Being with people, but feels alone. But, inaaliw k na lang ang sarili ko. So my phone is my bestfriend sometimes:)
Anywat, when you feel alone, come to God. He wants your company:)
hey. *virtual hugs*
ReplyDeletecheer up.
you don't have to be lonely even if u r alone :D
life goes on
ReplyDeleteshow goes on it does not stop for a super hero also
I rarely comment, but i did some searching and wound up here "Outcast".
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As fiel said it's "self-esteem" MEcoy. you just need to add a little weigh and importance on that. Nobody can uplift you than yourself.
ReplyDeleteLooking and talking to you virtually, you don't look like one. Though behind the smiles in your photos I can see a very shy boy hiding.
Don't be shy and don't feel like an outast. You got the talents and the looks. Go out and tell yourself and everybody "I belong!" ;)
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I know the feeling, kaya nga nagaalala nanaman ako ngayong pasukan, loner nanaman ang peg ko.
ReplyDeleteHAHAHAHA!
Tingin ko kasi mas gusto ng karamihan yung mga maiingay, madaldal, makwento, animated na tao, bihira gusto makipagkaibigan sa mga reserved na tao.
Akala siguro nila kapag tahimik, boring at seryoso or minsan masungit, suplado etc...
Sus! 'Di naman ganun 'yon!
Stay positive!!! I always have nobody around, nobody bother also!!! Learn to be independent and strong!!! =]
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine a good-looking man and a talented one can be like this.
ReplyDeleteFight over it. Learn to reach out more esp. to the people you admire and wanted to be with. Stick to people who makes you happy and accept the way you are. Cheer up parecoy!
I know that life is sometimes sad, people are different. But on the other hand we should think positive :) Don't worry!
ReplyDeleteay alam mo mecoy, ganun yung feeling ko minsan kaya ako nag-bablog. sabi ko nga ang dami ko namang bestfriends at circle of friends pero nagiging introvert talaga ako minsan minsan. at di naman sila nagkulang ng appreciate sakin pero bakit ko talaga na-fifeel minsan ang pagiging alone
ReplyDeletethe reason why we feel outcasted is yun ang iniisip natin. Kung ano kasi ang iniisip, yun kadalasan ang nagaganap. Mind over matter. I know that feeling kasi kahit ako ganun din.... yung may moment na feeling awkward and feeling out of place. But then, as i mentioned, baka nasa isip lang natin ang lahat,.
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You are wonderful and I appreciate you! Remember that!!!
ReplyDeleteyeah, i was so agree with you was the fact that people lives on with or without others~ but i do appreciate you too! XD
ReplyDeleteNo worries, you're not an outcast among us, all your blogger friends.
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You are no outcast, Mecoy.. I think you are pretty special.. otherwise you will not be created by God.. :) Each of us are special in our own special way.. :)
ReplyDeleteGanyan din ang feeling ko nung schooling days ko.. kasi 'aloof' talaga ako sa karamihan...mahilig kasi ako sa solitude... but then nabago nang magjoin ako sa isang Christian community. I am happier inside out...kaso i need to leave the community para naman sa ibang life plans ko..kaya paminsan-minsan nakakaramdam uli ako ng ganung feeling... Thank God there's FB and the blogging world, nakaka-relate na ako sa marami at nakapag-communicate sa mga dating kasama sa community from time to time.
ReplyDeletenung nag-aaral din ako, di rin ako member ng isang 'popular' group...
ReplyDeletetahimik lang at mabibilang din ang mga kaibigan.
nakakalungkot naman yung nangyari sa iyong best friend...
just be yourself..we don't need to change just because of other people. As long as you are happy, then you are fine. Don't worry about others.
ReplyDeleteYou feel you're an outcast? Really?! Sorry but I did not know you felt this way. Actually, it's OK to be an outcast hahaha! What I mean is, don't focus on those people who do not appreciate you. There are many others who appreciate you and you should focus on them instead! : )
ReplyDeleteWhat happened to you during your school days are in the past. Why bother about the past? It's the present that matters. As for friends who don't appreciate you, delete them (I don't mean kill them! LOL! ) and find new ones. Life is too short to be sad over people who do not appreciate you. Most important thing is you appreciate yourself : )
ReplyDeleteAnd I've always learn one thing - never allow your happiness to be dependent on other people. Just be happy and be positive regardless of others. You will somehow attract more friends who appreciate you. Try it! : )
ReplyDeleteHave a great day and happy blogging! Now where's my Twisted story? : D
ReplyDeleteIn times na na fe-feel natin na we are alone and feeling "me againts the world" diti nababagay ang katagang "be yourself. Be consistent with who you are dapat. Friends will love you for who you are and not because of pretence. Go lang ng go Mecoy. Sure there are a lot like you out there, go find them. If none, you have Him.
ReplyDeletexx!
It's normal to feel this way. Just keep calm :) I felt like this a lot back in high school!
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ReplyDeleteMadami kang friend.. kaso nasa Cavite ka lang panget..malayo ka. heheh cheer up ha
ReplyDeleteEhehehe i know the feeling. sa napakahabang panahon eh outcast ako kaya tignan mo ako baliw...
ReplyDeleteThink you are just being reserved just go with the flow take it easy
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