Back in my high school days, I was a typical student (well, I think I was) who goes at school and come home right after. I had friends back then, actually all of my classmates treats me really well as if I was kind of respected. But that only happens at school after that, nobody even notice that I'm gone, nobody invited me to hangout after school, nobody wants to be with me, that's how I felt back then, nobody aside my two best friends. But even though I had them back then, something in me was lacking, I was longing for a different type of friendship I guess.
So after high school through my first job, I had my first ever cellphone, and from then I started joining texting clans, I even built my own. And I had met then the best of friends I had, some people that I can play jokes with, and that was the very first time I felt appreciated, that I was valued as a person, as me, as a real friend. But along the way something happened, my best friend died, and the other went on with their live and as for me, the feeling of being alone came back. Nobody ever made me feels that way since my best friend, perhaps that's why I cried the hardest on his funeral, I even cried louder than his girl friend. Weeks after, I was sick, perhaps due to depression, and from then I decided that I can't live like that, and so, I started wondering around again, but unfortunately I don't know where to start on my circle of friends then, so I started joining texting clans again. I flirt with a lot of girls back then, coz that's how I feel appreciated, until I met my girl friend but ironically, the girl I loved, never really made me feels that way and what's worst is, I keep distance to those people who makes me great which my girl friend was jealous of.
And it feels like I was back on the way it was before,but now I learned to accept the fact that people lives on with or with out me.